Wednesday, 26 March 2014

Family Influences

I was reflecting the other day about the influences on my life, after reflection I thought of the following :

  • My late  mother, for teaching me Torah and a love of Sephardic culture and the world of Jewry all told 
  • My late father, for teaching and encouraging me in my secular studies, alongside religious ones .For instilling in me a sense of understanding about my host country Great Britain
  • My late paternal uncle, for teaching me that one can respect and appreciate different faiths, without being untrue to your own
  • My late first wife, who as she was  from a Chabad-Lubavitch background, helped me realise that not all mysticism is wrong or not worth studying, who gave me a joy & companionship, that I'd never  thought would ever be possible and a love of humanity that endured until she died.
  • My twin brother Sholmo, who has always stood by me in a fight
  • My sister Esther, whose knowledge of the Torah is complimented by her compassion toward others
  • My sister Ruth,whose patience and ability to listen without judgement has keep me going 
  • My brother Samuel, who provides much needed levity and brings me to earth with a crash
  • My sister Rachel, whose sharp tonge and fierece loyality will be appreciated by a future husband
  • My sister Hannah, who for her kindness during my darkest hours of depression and loneliness, I might not be here today.
  • My children, who remind me of the miracle of life, the miracle of love, that family can be an exhausting proposition, but a deeply rewarding one.
  • My second wife, who filled a void in my heart that I never thought would ever be filled again. Who provides nothing other than, love, attention and beauty in my life. Who helped me understand that rationalism and mystical belief can be reconciled and that even as she was an atheist before her conversion to Judaism. she was not far oft from The Almighty.
And last, but never least, Ehyeh Asher Ehyeh,- The One Who Was, The One Who Is-without whom I would not be here and the above be possible. As a Jew I have wrestled with Hashem, as did Jacob, all of my life. But he has been with me, even if I not with him, bring this lost sheep of Israel back to his fold, as he has done with my brother Samuel and sister Hannah.

Halleluyah, Ha-Kadosh Barukh Hu, Halleluyah